Old pictures

I Google'd my screen name and found my old Findapix accounts. There, I found some old pictures I haven't seen in almost two years: (click image to view larger version)













Crazy....

Todai.. Tommorow!

Song of the moment: Mile Marker by The Appleseed Cast

slow down a lighted road.
a broken sign states the mile.
a broken code.
a simple rhyme.
a smile.
a fallen line.
a simple song set the time.
an empty stage.
a view beyond the skyline.
all comes falling down.
on the floor the heart.
the tangled weed.
the open door.
the sign.
an open life is an onion skin.
in time the never scene in party blue.
i'm dying.
these are the colors
and shades of a heart that is broken


I'm going to Todai tommorow with Grace, her bf, and Isaac! Woo hoo, I'm excited. I haven't hung out with them since I think March? Anyways, it's cold, but I'm gonna go take a shower and then off to youth group I go. Wheeee!

Fallen Angels

A meteor shower is a group of fallen angels forsakened by God by way of punishment for thier sins and abominations to themselves and those around them. Humans who walk among the Earth live on as those angels, unaware of their past as the "unwanted" creatures of heaven, whilst the role of Earth is to simply serve as God's garbage can.


ò_Ó!

How loved are you?
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Name?
Age?
Favourite animal?
You're this loved.	91%
This many people love you.	287
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Wow. This makes me feel more secure! *rolls eyes*

Act your age:	Sometimes 8, sometimes 28.
Born on what day of the week:	I don't know, nor does my mom.
Chore you hate:	Everything. What freak loves chores?
Dad's name:	Which one? ..... My "real" dad's name is Nilo (by real, I mean biological... I have no "real" dad), my first step-dad's name is Charles, and my current step-dad's name is Alex
Essentail make-up item:	Black eye-liner. Duh.
Favorite actors/actresses:	I don't like to play favorites.
Gold or sliver:	Silver.
Hometown:	Manila, Philippines.
Instruments you play:	Piano, guitar
Job title:	Lazy bum.
Kids:	Suck.
Living arrangements:	Shitty and ghetto.
Mom's name:	Adelwisa
Number of socks you own:	wtf.... who would know that?
Overnight hospital stays:	Ugh, altogether, I'm guessing around.... 15 days?
Phobia:	Writing on crumpled paper, relationships
Quote you like:	"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die tommorow." - James Dean (It's basically "Carpe Diem")
Religious affiliation:	Christianity
Siblings:	2
Time you woke up today:	12
Unusual habits:	I have a lot..
Vicious thing you've done:	GAH there's not enough room for me to answer this question. I probably used to be the bitchest person in school and I allowed EVERYONE to feel my wrath, those who are innocent
Worst habit:	Contradicting everything I do. Being a hypocrite. Loving and hating EVERYONE at the same time.
X-rays you've had:	Teeth, whole body?
Your favorite season:	Fall.
Zodiac sign:	Gemini.

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Random questions
What's your middle name?:	Mendador
Who was your first childhood friend?:	This little boy named Kitchi, who I used to think was a girl.... long story.
Are you still friends?:	No, he's back in the Philippines.
How many times have you moved in your life?:	1 major move (Philippines to California), and 4 in-Santa Cruz moves.
Have you ever been in love?:	Yeah, sure.
At what age would you say you stopped being a kid?:	I'm still a kid in many ways...
What's your favorite scent?:	Freshly showered people.
Enjoy gloomy/rainy days?:	Always.
Have any good-luck charms?:	My blue and clear Swarovski necklace that my godmother gave me.
Have any snow dances/superstitions for getting a day off of school?:	I just call in as my sister and excuse myself from school.
When you were five years old, what did you want to be when you grew up?:	I think I wanted to be a nun.... HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.
And now?:	World-famous actress (like that would ever happen)
Can you read music?:	Yeah.
Speak another language?:	Yeahp.
What's your favorite cereal?:	Cinnamon Toast Crunch.
You opinion of the 80s?:	The sex rocked. The fashion sucked. But I like the leg warmers. The music was okay. The actors were hot.
Are traffic cones trying to take over the world? (yes, they are):	HAHAHA. I remember when I went around the Boardwalk, molesting people with a traffic cone. I even fucked my friend Aramis from the ass with it. Fucking hilarious.
Given the chance, would you become a hippie?:	No. They smell.
Believe in magic?:	I believe in the illusion of magic.
Think you've done any?:	If illusion and deception is magic, then I'm the best fucking magician in the whole world.
Let's hear a philosophical statement about the nature of reality::	Life and living is just a state of mind. You can twist and turn everything through your perspective and change the world as you see it as easily as you can destroy it.
And, you know I have to ask... is there a spoon?:	This survey is a spoon. Whoever is reading this is a spoon. I AM A SPOON. Except not, since I'm a spork.
If you could go anywhere, where would you go?:	In a different planet on a different galaxy where intelect is more a more important attribute than physical appearances.
Who would you want to be stranded on an island with?:	Jake Gyllenhal. We'd just have sex all day until some perverted pilot spots us and lands on the island to have a closer look.
But why's the rum gone?:	We (Mr. Gyllenhal and I) don't drink rum. We drink vodka. Dry.
Did you read a lot when you were a kid?:	I was an even bigger bookworm when I was a kid. Even back in the Philippines, I would spend hours reading the Bible just to impress my aunt... who, in actuality, never cared.
And now?:	Yeah, and I write a lot too.
Have you ever watched cheesy sci-fi shows like Farscape and Buffy?:	My family and I used to be fanatics of Xena the Warrior Princess, Hercules, and of course, the Buffy/Angel series. We're nerds... I know.
Does reality TV not suck and make you feel ashamed of humanity?:	No, it just makes me laugh about how idiotic people can be.
Is Spongebob Squarepants the root of all evil? (yes, it is):	Fuck whoever wrote this survey.. Spongebob is the shiznit. Just like Popeye's Chicken. It's the fucking shiznit.
Are you a sheep or a goat?:	Since I've molested so many goats in the past, I think I've earned the right to be called a goat. At least I gave birth to a half goatling. Which was not at all pleasant, fyi.
Do you like broadway musicals?:	I luuuuuurve musicals. (me = theatre nerd)
If so, name a favorite::	Lion King, Hairspray, Chicago, 42nd Street, Chorus Line, Damn Yankees, Grease, Into the Woods,The Wiz, West Side Story, Rent.... I love them all.
Like instrumental movie soundtracks?:	I love all music.. yes, even country. (hey... stop laughing at me, you insensitive bastard!)
Like indie movies?:	Of course.
Have a favorite composer?:	Mozart... mmm... I loved his un-controllable insanity.
Favorite director?:	Michel Gondry
Do you have a role model?:	Myself. <-- the root of all my problems and solutions.
Did you when you were younger?:	My aunt was both my role model and number 1 fear.
What superhero did you always pretend to be as a kid?:	Dracula. Does he count as a superhero?
Favorite Disney movie?:	Hmm.. Either Aladdin or Mulan (Yay, go minorities!)
Don't you miss the Angry Beavers and old All That? They were awesome.:	Fuck yes! All That was such a fucking awesome show. I also miss Rocko's Modern Life, Ren and Stimpy, and all those shows that teach kids ABSOUTELY NOTHING. Those were the best
Would you name a nickle Phillip?:	No, but I would possibly name it "Nickle My Bitchticle" or "Nick My Dick".
Don't you hate rebellious lockers?:	No.
Did you have any mortal enemies in elementary school?:	This little punk-ass skinny little white whore who was a foot shorter than me used to bully me in 2nd grade. That was before I broke out of my shell.
When, would you say, was the best time of your life?:	Oh man.. probably back when I was in the Philippines. Life was so simple--I would spend my days swimming in flood-water, chasing rats, and getting lost in malls. Good times.
What are you looking forward to most in life?:	The sweet release of death. Hah. Just kidding. I guess I look forward to being successful and ruling the world.
Do you find cheese amusing?:	I find it's name amusing, but it's purposes... not so amusing.
How do you express yourself?:	I write, draw, talk about myself... and stuff.
Are you a fan of the movie Office Space?:	Who isn't? "T-t-t-t-t-hat's m-m-m-my s-s-s-s-tap-p-pler y-y-y-y-ou a-a-ss h-h-h-h-ole"
Do you watch anime?:	Sometimes, I used to watch it all the time before I realised I needed a life.
If so, purist or dubbie?:	Purist. Dubbed anime sucks unless that's the only version you can get a hold of.
Rock on, purist people.:	Damn fucking right you fucking nerd face.
If you could have one superpower::	Telikinesis. I want to have the ability to move things so I can scare my friends into thinking ghosts are real.
If you could be any animal::	I'd be a house cat to a wealthy family so my only responsibilities would be to eat and sleep.
If you could change something in any book, movie or TV show::	Everyone who participates in reality shows must be naked AT ALL TIMES. I would make lame books have a discretion on the cover about its lameness.
What movie made you want your 7 bucks and 2 hours back?:	Freddy Vs. Jason, Rollerball, Wild Wild West, Planet of the Apes
What movie scared the crap out of you?:	The Grudge---I know, I'm such a lame cliche. Fuck you.
Made you cry (even if you won't admit it)?:	Lion King, and I can admit it to everyone I know. I fucking cried my eyes out the first 6 times I saw Mufasa die.
What movie do you love even though you know it's stupid?:	Jawbreaker
Favorite Monty Python skit::	"I've got a lovely bunch of cocoanuts, didilydi........."
Favorite poet::	Edgar Allan Poe
Favorite toy when you were a kid::	A dead rat (no kidding.. that's how ghetto the Philippines is)
Still have it?:	I don't even know what to say to this..
Do you still dress up for Halloween?:	When I have money, yes.
Ever plan on stopping? I don't.:	Only if I'm broke during Halloween.
Do you like cows?:	No.
Goats?:	I love to molest goats, yes.
Ever had actual contact with the aforementioned animals?:	Yes.
If you could have any animal for a pet::	Something small and deadly so I can put it in my sister's bed and have as a scapegoat for her death.
What embarrassing/amusing incident do your friends always love to bring up?:	Back in 7th grade when a seagull shat on me and I thought it was hail, little ditzy things like that.
Do you blush?:	I sometimes just turn red without notice. People think I wear blush all the time.
Hate public speaking?:	Not anymore.
Hate numbers?:	Only the ones from my scale. *cries*
Hate traitorous movie directors and authors?:	No.
Think the above question wasn't weird? If yes, gods bless you.:	...
Do you think you were brainwashed as a little kid?:	Everyone is brainwashed. Whether it be good or bad... it's the definite truth.
Do you agree with the religion you were brought up with?:	Yeah, but I don't really bring that up to strangers often, you know, living in an atheist and hippy city and all.
If not, do you plan on giving your children a choice in the matter?:	It's a little early to be answering that question...
What is your philosophy in life?:	I have too many philosophies about life but I'm just trying to finish this survey as fast as i can so i can go to sleep.
Consider yourself an optimist or a pessimist?:	Both.
Do you frequently experience deja vu?:	Yeah, it's really wierd.
Because you've dreamed the future, or is it a glitch in the Matrix?!:	I once dreamed about a dream inside a dream while I was dreaming in a dream. Maybe life is a dream?
Agents! Run away, run away!!:	WHOEVER MADE THIS SURVEY IS PROBABLY ONE OF THOSE TREKKIE 30-YEAR-OLD VIRGIN NERDS.
Sorry. Anyway. What little-known band/singer would you recommend to anyone?:	Anything emo, really.
Do you watch amusing flash animations (Homestar, Weebl, Legendary Frog)?:	Homestar is the shiznit.
Have a favorite animator?:	No.
What single event/person/thing has most changed your life?:	Ugh.... I can't think of the "number one" thing.
What's your favorite Shakespeare play?:	Hamlet. It's bloody, treacherous, evil and witty. I love it.
The home stretch! Respond to the following:
WTF mate?:	wtf. LAME QUESTION.
How are you gentlemen?:	Another lame question. (if it's a lame question, then why am I answering it? easy. i'm a lame person.)
Lo Bob. You have pie?:	You have wit? Because this certainly isn't working.
Moisture is the essence of wetness.:	Being horny is the essence of wetness for me... I don't know about anyone else. hahahahahahaha
What is the air-speed velocity of an unladen swallow?:	3669
Are you a ninja or a pirate?:	I'm a proud butt-pirate. Minus the proud and pirate part.

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Wow... another waste of time in which I could have spent doing my homework, but didn't. I am so stupid. (Oh well, moving on!)

Exhaustion

I don't want to do my homework. I just want to get over school and get this shit over with, but since I didn't choose to graduate early before this school year started, it's too late and early graduation is NOT possible, even though I could have graduated last year.

This is the problem with being me... a Gemini. Half of the time, I'm a big over-achiever who thinks she can dominate the world. The other half, I just want to be by myself and sleep all day. The contradiction between the two usually ends up making me look like an idiot. I would sign up for a bunch of classes, extra curricular activities, be psyched up about it for months before it happens, and when I actually start getting into it, the other side interferes with my optimisim and turns everything around.

Maybe it's the exhaustion. My over-achieving side expects too much of me, which uses up too much of my energy too fast. Or maybe it's just my short-tempered/impatient/easily bored side. I don't know. I just know what I know right now and it's the feeling of wanting to just not exist anymore. Living in general has taken its toll on me and I just want to crawl up in a small hole and sleep for the rest of eternity.

Or, I could keep writing and get all this built-up frustration out of me until I get back to normal. The only thing I'm not doing this time (by "time", I mean the period in my life when I'm depressed and confused), I won't leave my youth group like what I did earlier this year when I felt like giving up. Maybe they'll have some answers for me--or at least, the comfort and attention I need to finally feel wanted again.

I need alcohol. Except not, since I don't drink and I think "drinking your problems away" is just an illusion to hide the fact that it's practically a short train ride to death. Hah. I am such a contradiction.

A Cynical Poem

"Love Is Not My Fate"
11/29/04


Love is not my fate.
Yet one look into your eyes and my heart just melts
Everything else is a blur
And my beating heart screams for your touch
Your love
As I dream of the day
The impossible day
In which we will be together.

But alas, our destinies collide
And repel each other
As if un-natural forces
Are pulling us apart.
We are too different
And too similar
And too sinful
To ever deserve each other.

Love is not my fate
And I try to fight the inevitable
But fail each time.
And each time my chi refuses to let me love
To let me live
My heart deteriorates
And falls into withered pieces
Pieces in which I collect
Into my scrapbook of un-destined love
To remind myself, how
Love is not my fate.



There's my attempt in writing a poem about "love". I originally wanted to write about the changes from fall to winter, but I couldn't think how to start it. I then came across this poem and thought about writing a poem that is the exact opposite of it.

Anywho, I'm going to try to write more poems from now on and submit them to the poetry section of my school's newspaper. In the mean time, I have to go work on my oral book review for English on Life Of Pi by Yann Martel. Fun.

Take the quiz: "What kind of eyes do you have?"

Scared
Your eyes are scared. Your eyes are scared of pain, or rejection. You know how much it hurts to lose someone u cared for, but in return they dumped you like a sack of potatoes! Someday you will find your special friend, or lover, so dont stay hidden too much. You have also seen much misery when it comes to guy too, so you pefer to keep it safe, and keep your heart locked up from everyone guy that seems to be interested. You dont wanna go through anymore pain....



WTF. How much more emo can you get? Gahhhhhhh I keep talking about emo this and emo that. I'm not fucking emo. And that quiz fucking sucked and was too vague and general to really describe me. HOW DARE THEY. ROAARRRRRRRRR.

Emo pictures

Song of the moment: Fight Song by The Appleseed Cast

Well, school was boring as usual. Snoozed my way through world communities, snoozed my way through photography, and snoozed my way through journalism. I found my digital camera today, so I decided to take the emo pictures I wanted to take last night. Pretending to be emo is fun!


Click to see full version.

The Emo Look/Self-Discovery

Song of the moment: Vindicated by Dashboard Confessional


Right now, I'm wearing my old black and red SC sweatshirt with my black Guess pants with curly brown/red hair and black emo make up. I'm pissed that I can't find my stupid digital camera, because I really want to take pictures of me pretending to be emo. Oh well, shit smells.

Anyways, I spent the whole week at Care's house. I must have gained at least ten pounds from the last five days, because her family eats breakfast lunch AND dinner. Full meals. I haven't eaten three full "actual" meals just from one day in five years. I usually eat one meal and stuff my face with junk food in random times of the day.

Other than the big change in my diet from the last 5 days, I spent my time getting to know Care and Jessica and other people from church. I'm finally beginning to find myself again and I'm starting to not be afraid to show my true self.... a comfort that is based around the environment of Christianity. I realised I was becoming a better person inside and out, and I also realised that I'm starting to like myself again. It's a great feeling.

Let's see... I started work yesterday. It was fun, but I was just too worried about messing up to be able to really enjoy it. I'm still being trained and I'm not sure when exactly my manager will let me help customers. But I know that the minute I start to warm up to the environment and the people, that I'll be the best job that I've ever had. Or at least, the funnest. The people seem nice, the work doesn't seem that hard--It's just hard for beginners who have to worry about memorising songs, rules, blah, blah, blah.

Fuck, I have to do an oral book review on Thursday and I'm only 1/8 done with my book. I switched my book review selection just last week from Voltaire's Candide to Yann Martel's Life of Pi. I'm sure I can finish Life of Pi in two days, it's just the matter of whether or not I'll remember to bring it with me everywhere I go. If I had only remembered to take it with me when I was at Care's house, I would be more than half-way through with it by now. Oh well, I can just bullshit my way through my oral presentation. I always do, and I always end up with an A. =)

What comes to mind when you hear..
..snow?:	white
..rain?:	comfort
..tornado?:	twisty
..summer love?:	short
..Jon?:	my brother?
..Mike?:	Lorraine's boyfriend
..Shea?:	wtf.
..banana?:	lip gloss
..dizzy?:	dead
..Laura?:	woods
..Juan?:	juanity
..car?:	need
..white?:	horse
..peppermint?:	patty
..New Found Glory?:	SUCK
..placebo?:	spit
..orange juice?:	orange julius
..candid camera?:	scary
..sister?:	fat
..brother?:	stupid
..hate?:	love
..school?:	lame
..President?:	lame
..football?:	lame
..rap?:	hippity hop
..pop?:	eh
..rock?:	emo
..punk?:	emo
..sex?:	emo
..death?:	emo
..baby?:	annoying
..duuude?:	wtf
..the end?:	good

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--Your Favorite--
Hair Color::	Black or brown
Eye Color::	Black, brown, or green
(Their)Music Genre Preference::	Rock
Height(estimate)::	5'6 and above
Age::	17-20
Personality Type::	Layed back, good sense of humor, respectfull, daring, intelligent
--This or That--
Older or Younger::	Older.
Romantic or Horndog::	Romantic horndog.
Smart or Stupid::	Smart.
Fat or Skinny::	Skinny.
Skinny but Muscular or Big and Muscular::	Skinny but muscular.
Punk or Preppy::	Both.
The Big Picture or the Little Things::	Little things.
Flowers/Candy or Big Expensive Present::	Flowers/Candy. And cookies.
Mixtape or Burned CD::	Burned CD. Who still listens to tapes?
Love or Lust::	Love... I've had too much of lust. =\
Emotional or Just Not::	Occasionally emotional.
Sincere or Jokester::	Both. I can't stand the two extremes.
Hott and mean or Ugly and sweet::	Eww. I'd rather be alone.
Sexy or Just "cute"::	Just cute.
Arse or Abs::	Abs.
Hair or Hands::	HAIR.
Dimples or Eyes::	EYES.
Biceps or Calves/Thighs::	Ehhh............. doesn't matter.
Teeth or Nose(some people are just wierd) ::	I would prefer him to have both a full set of teeth and a nose.
Clean Shaven or Scruffy::	Clean shaven.
Rugged or Prim and Proper::	Both.
Countryboy or Cityboy:	Cityboy!
Date alone or With Friends:	Go out with friends, and spend time alone together afterwards.
Mama's Boy or Rebel Without A Cause::	A rebellious mama's boy.
--Have You Ever--
Dumped a guy because he liked you too much::	Eww, yes.
Loved a guy because he stalked you::	UH, NO. That'd be lame and a little too desperate.
Loved a guy because he hated you::	Why?
Asked your friend's crush out::	No...
Lead a guy on for kicks::	Eh. Yeah.
Asked a guy out purely because he was hott::	I've never asked a guy out.
Flirted with guys even though you had a boyfriend::	Hah. Yep.
Lied about not having a boyfriend::	Nah.
Lied about having one::	No.
Cheated::	No.
Been Cheated on::	Probably.
Had a crush on a gay guy::	YES! OMG ALL THE TIME. (not kidding... it happened at least four times)
--Their Clothing(yes/no)--
Boxers?::	Yes.
Briefs?::	Yes.
Hat?::	Depends on the hat.
Skater Shoes?::	Yes
Pimp Shoes?::	wtf no.
Band Shirts?::	Sure.
Vintage shirts?::	Yes.
Southpole/um..other thug clothes..?::	If he didn't act like a "thug", then it doesn't matter.
Dixie Outfitters/Big Johnsons?::	Sure.
Independent/DC?::	Yes.
Skavenger/UGP?::	wtf is that?
Fox/Thor?::	"ditto"
Jeans or Shorts?::	Sure.
--Be Honest--
Would you ever date a guy for his money?::	Fuck no. I dumped a guy once because he had too much money. Hah.
Would you ever date a guy for his social status?::	Never.
Have you ever liked hanging out with your bf's friends more than him?::	Maybe..
Have you ever pretended to like somebody to make them feel better?:	Yeah =\
Have you called a girl a whore, when you were screwing lots of guys?::	No.
Do looks matter?::	Sadly, yes.
Are you honestly scared of being dumped?::	Not really.
Does size matter?::	As long as he's not a midget.... or he's not some 8-foot giant or something.
Do you avoid 'situations' with ugly guys?::	Yeah. Who doesn't?
Are you ashamed to be seen with your ugly friends?::	wtf no.
Are you ashamed for being ashamed?(you better be)::	Who said I was ashamed?
Do you hide things from your crushes/guy friends/bf?::	I hide a lot of things.
Do you lie about masturbation for attention or false innocence?::	I don't think that subject has ever come up............ haha. I'm lying right now.
Do you really want a guy to say if those jeans make your butt look fat?::	Sure. Aren't big butts in these days? hah.
Are you dissapointed when your bf doesn't say I love you right away?::	Eww, no. I've actually NEVER said those words first. Ever.
Wanna be a virgin till marriage?:	HAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
Do you really love the guys everytime that you say it?:	Noooooooooooo.
Do you dream about your crushes/bfs/guy friends?::	Yep.
Would you makeout with a guy friend just to get it over with/curiosity?::	Sure.
Does this survey suck nuts?:	Yes, yes it does. And I suck even more nuts for taking it.

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Three things that scare me:
1:	Midget clowns.
2:	Showing all of weaknesses at once.
3:	Anyone in my family dying.
Three people who make me laugh:
1:	Robin
2:	Fat people who wear short shorts and mini skirts with skimpy tops aka KANKLES (fatty freshman girl from school)
3:	Anyone with a heavy FOB accent
Three Things I love:
1:	My friends who I can rely on and are like family.
2:	Staying inside and curling up with a good book while there's a huge, windy storm outside.
3:	Changing my look, personality, and behavior.
Three Things I hate:
1:	Stupid people.
2:	Smelly people.
3:	Man boobs.
Three things I don't understand:
1:	Why some people choose not to take showers and insist on torturing people around them.
2:	How people can stand being in lond term relationships without getting bored.
3:	Why I decided to stay another year in high school when I could have easily graduated early.
Three things on my desk:
1:	An empty bowl with some left-over rice and a big spoon.
2:	The phone.
3:	A calculator.
Three things I'm doing right now:
1:	Typing.
2:	Thinking about how my stomach is hurting and how I desperately need a drink of water.
3:	Watching COPs.
Three things I want to do before I die:
1:	Travel around the world.
2:	Start my own band.
3:	Be a famous actress/singer/porn star--I mean, independant film star. *cough*
Three things I can do:
1:	Adapt to different situations and make people around me comfortable if not scared for their lives.
2:	Procrastinate until the last minute on homework/other school related things and still get an A.
3:	Talk myself into thinking I'm something that I'm obviously not. (too much confidence?)
Three ways to describe my personality:
1:	Unpredictable.
2:	Unstable.
3:	Unchangeable.
Three things I can't do:
1:	Be on stage in front of a group of professional actors and directors and cold-read without my knees shaking to a point where I trip and fall to the ground.
2:	Do homework the minute I get home.
3:	Not laugh at wierd/serious situations.

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Okay.... I'm doing ONE MORE and then I'm going to sleep.

Free movies for a year or free CDS for your life?:	Free CDs for life! I get free movies anyways. Hehe.
School or work?:	Work.
Christmas or birthday?:	Christmas! The holidays last longer and have more joyful spirit than a single day of birth-celebration and what-not.
Peanut Butter M&MS,Regular M&Ms, or Peanut M&MS?:	PEANUT BUTTER!
Dozen Roses or 3 boxes of chochlate?:	CHOCOLATE.
Sandra Bullock or Julia Roberts?:	Sandra Bullock. Julia Roberts sucks monkey balls.
Brad Pitt or Tom Cruise?:	They're both ugly, but if I had to pick, Brad Pitt--only because I like his layed-back style.
Vanilla Pepsi or Vanilla coke?:	Both suck.
American Eagle or Abercromie and Fitch?:	Ditto.
Driving or flying?:	Flying.
Roller skating or ice skating?:	Ice skating.
Apples or oranges?:	Apples.
Paris, France or Florence, Italy?:	ITALY!
Punk'D or The Newlyweds?:	Punk'D. Jessica Simpson annoys the shizzles out of me.
Jay Leno or David Letterman?:	Conan O'Brien.
New York or LA?:	NEW YOOOOOOOOOOORK!
AOL messenger or MSN messenger?:	Both suck, but since I use AIM, I guess I have to go with that...
Jennifer Aniston/Brad Pitt or J.LO/Ben Affleck?:	J-lo sucks and Ben Affleck is ugly. So I pick Jennifer Anniston and Brad Pitt.
Ralph Lauren or Tommy Hilfiger?:	Ralph Lauren. Stupid Hilfiger's a racsit bastard.
leaf raking or snow shoveling?:	Leaf raking! It's fun to jump on/over the leaves when you're done.
black pen or blue pen?:	Black pen.
WalMart or Target?:	I've never been to a WalMart, and I think I went to Target once when I was 11.
picnic under the stars or horse carriage in the park?:	Any choice that has food in it has my vote.
chochlate chip cookies or peanut butter cookies?:	Oohhh.... tough one... I would have to say, PEANUT BUTTER!
Kobe Bryant or Shaq?:	Let's see.... Pedophile womanizer or giant who has a lazy eye and is as ugly as a hippo's ass.... let me think.
basketball, baseball, or football?:	BASKETBALL.
Hiliary Duff (Lizzie Mcguire) Or Lindsey Logan(Freaky Friday)?:	Who the fuck is "Lindsey Logan"?
French fries,curly fries, or tator tots?:	Curly fries.
Ben Affleck or Matt Damon?:	Neither.
Phoebe, Monica, or Rachel(off of FRIENDS)?:	Phoebe!

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